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Friday, September 7, 2012

Sorry

Just a quick one....I am truly sorry for my post of yesterday. It was not my intention to make so many, so sad.

I only wanted to report a brief, and for me shocking, glimpse of my grandchild. It caught me totally by surprise. It also ruined my day.

Thank you all for your kind and wonderful support. I have tried over the last few months to keep such reports and post to a bare minimum, and shall try to continue in this vein.

Please, bear with me.

Now, back to our regular programming...
 

38 comments:

  1. I read your blog yesterday but did not have the heart to comment. It reminded me of how fragile my link to my 5 year old granddaughter is.

    Sometimes something strikes from out of the blue.

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  2. I don't think you should have to check yourself in posting about that sweet girl and your feelings. In the last few weeks, I have wondered how you and Sweet Wife are holding up. I didn't comment yesterday because I was so angry for you and sad...I just couldn't find the words at that moment. All I had was a desire to beat the tar out of your son. It's your blog, we're just here to be your cheerleading section.

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    1. I check myself in my updates, writing, of her because it is depressing for me. It hurts. I really try and spare my few readers this pain. That and time constraints. Here at my shop it's difficult enough to write during the all too brief quiet moments, but when I do write of her it tells, shows if you will, to my customers. Many have asked 'what's wrong with you,' after a post where the subject is Little Bit. But, I'll try. Thanks, Mermaid.

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  3. I feel you pain, and someday we will feel your Joy when this ugly situation resolves itself. You have too many people sending prayers and good thoughts your way for this to not work out in the best manner for all of you. Don't give up hope!

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    1. From you lips to God's ears...thanks, my friend.

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  4. your blog is for Little Bit...when she gets older and taps into your blog she needs to know how Papa was feeling and coping.

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  5. What Swamp Dog said - you have nothing for which to apologize. What kind of friends would we be, if we didn't help when you're in need?

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  6. That unicorn meat looks good where can i get some?
    Maybe I'm just hungry...and you have nothing to apologize for.

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    1. Thank you, Corey. Only can known to exist in nature...

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  7. That is what friends are for, to listen.
    No apologies needed (((((Stephen)))))

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    1. I get it, dear Sandy...thank you. Oh, have I got a handgun for you...

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  8. I commented anonymously, it broke my heart to hear what happened..I work with people who would literally die to save their kin..I am of the spanish background, my familia would never do what you mentioned so it broke my heart, it lingered with me so i was extra sweet where I volunteer at a food place,when the parents are eating, I read stories to the wee ones, they adore my hubby, holding his hand and his legs, he is surrounded by loving angels and I do get to prepare the food for their loving moms and dads who would as I so stated die for their angels on this earth..I have sent up prayers and my chants I believe in buddha what goes out into the universe is reflected in our lives and bodies, you & your sweet wife are kind, loving human beings, soon your lives will be tuned around with your sweet angel of a grand daughter..that is what happens in the universe from a higher power, peace to you and love..everyone in your blogland is sending prayers, affirmations and they will help with this situation, no apologies needed..Peace, Love, Joy to you and your sweet wife!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    1. Anon, what a wonderful comment. Thank you so very much. Very touching. Thank you for the your kind prayers and chants...they're always welcome. May God bless you and yours. Please, hang around.

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  9. dear sweet one, i think i can speak for the majority of your friends here when i say that we all worry about this situation and any time that you provide updates, all of us are interested and want to know. we also want to be here to support you through this very difficult time. we are your friends, dear Stephen, and we want to help...even if that is just leaving comments to show our support. Mamma Bear is right - this blog is for Little Bit - and once she is old enough to read and understand, she will want to know every detail.

    please don't ever apologize for sharing with us. we are here to support you and Sweet Wife and to let Little Bit know that there were always a ton of strangers hoping for the very best for her.

    Little Bit, when you read this, please understand how difficult this was for your Nana and Papa. and feel in your heart and soul all of the wishes and prayers that were sent your way because your Papa had friends that truly cared about him.

    much love to you and Sweet Wife and that darling Bit as always! your friend,
    kymber

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    1. kymber, when I read where a couple said they had tears it kinda 'got to me.' It was only written as a report, an update of sorts. I felt bad. If I ever feel I've caused grief or sorrow, I respond with an apology...just my nature. Thanks for the kind words and your expression of love and kindness. We do appreciate it. God bless you both.

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  10. No apology needed sir. You need a place to vent and this is it, we are your sounding board. You have not caused a problem, it is the instigators in this tradgedy who burden others with broken hearts, sorrow and anger. Patience will pay off my friend.

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    1. I hope my patience, which is running very short, pays off, Dean. Thank you so very much for the kind comment. Please, take care.

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    2. If it comes to it I work for free.

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  11. My poor brother. You are not making us sad. Your situation is. Your son-in-law is. And we are NOT here to read about anything other than your life. We SHARE in blogland, such as it is, and we are loyal to each other through good times and especially bad. That is when we NEED to vent and be supported.

    Would you visit any of OUR blogs during one of OUR trials and feel put-upon, listening to us?

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    1. No, I'd never feel 'put-upon,' then again, I don't wish to cause others to feel like-wise. Thanks for your kind and loving support, dear lady.

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  12. I love my children but each of them have made a mess of their lives. I have resorted to subtle bribery to continue to have influence and also assure contact with my grandchildren. In one case the mother (not my child) has always been somewhat cold to me and would most likely have refused me access to my grandchild. I have bent over backwards to be nice to here and when I can visit I bring presents for my grandchild and her second child unrelated to me. I am pleasant and refuse to be pulled into discussing her ex (my son). Over the last 6 or 7 years there has been some "warming" in that at least she appreciates the gifts and the occasional $20 she might need. Is it the perfect solution? Hell no but it's all I had. If you cannot endear yourself to them because you are the grandparent then maybe $20 bucks here and a gift there etc. might at least get you access. Don't make it too obvious and don't ever ackonwledge the reason why, simply appear to be magnanimous and avoid any negative discussions.

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    1. I wish it were that simple. My wife and I fully supported, I mean fully, our grandchild. We've spent untold thousands on our son. I don't mean four digits either, multiple thousands of dollars. Just because we extended a kindness to our grandchild's birth mother he has disowned us. Taken her from our lives. I'd willingly pay to see my Little Bit, but he refuses. Thanks, my new friend...God bless.

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  13. If this blog gives you a chance to vent and keeps you from doing something you may regret, (like calling out to her yesterday), then by all means, carry on and keep venting.

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    1. Thing is, I really feel the need to do such....Matt. I'm weary of the wait.

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  14. oh hon...i know that you are weary and i know that this is ripping your soul into pieces. i also know how strong you are, even when you aren't feeling strong, and i know that soon this will all be a bad memory that your Little Heart will get through in an instant. that's what i wish for her Stephen. i wish that this phase of her life becomes a blip and Papa will be there for her again...and all will be right in the world. and it will.

    i know that you can handle a lot. because of your strength, tenacity and perseverance, i send you 25% of my prayers...the other 75% are for her. i will never stop sending her my love and prayers. i promise. she will read this blog one day, dear sweet one, and all ideas of her Papa being some kind of white knight in shining armour will be blown out the window. she will read this blog and know, truly know and understand, that her Papa was a true American Man...a true and proper southern gentleman, a man of much action, many deeds and very fine words. and her heart will swell with such admiration and love. THIS is her Papa. and he was loved and admired by many from around the world!

    your friend,
    ah heck...u no hoo!

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  15. Thank you, my dear kymber. As I've said before...from your lips to God's ear.

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  16. Like I said...Prayers...whether you like them or not!! Is what I do for folks!!

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    1. My friend, I always appreciate prayers...thank you.

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  17. Just a thought, doesn't your state have grandparents rights? I mean you basically raised this liitle gem.

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    1. No, my friend, it does not. Matter of fact only one or two states have grandparent rights. I checked with my lawyer...said it was a dead-end road. It's a shame, but there it is....we're stuck. Thanks, my good friend.

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